My imperfection is undeniable and my knowledge is limited. I feel afraid whenever I face trials and challenges in life. And during my struggles I always tend to ask if what is next or what is coming? Because I do not know everything, or what to expect, I am always anxious about what I should do and what will happen to me. Most of the time we are too concerned with tomorrow and we question why God is allowing these bad things to happen.
Somehow I’ve been through a lot of difficulties in life already, but there was one instance that helped me to better understand the purposes of heaven. After giving birth to my second child I thought all was well. But after a few days the doctor told us that my son’s blood and my blood were incompatible and it could cause either retardation for my son or we would lose him if it was not corrected. My son was just a week old, and as a mother it was too painful for me to see my son suffering. Every time I looked at him all I could see was innocence above anything else in this world. I was troubled and even terrified to lose my son. I always carried a prayer in my heart to give my son the strength he needed to survive. I remember begging the Lord for my son’s life, even though I felt unworthy to ask Him. Days passed by and my son was able to survive and did not have any complications. Later, when contemplating what had happened, I came to realized that even in the midst of our trials the Lord will always give us comfort that everything will be alright through His plan. This experience helped me recognize even more the great love of the Lord for us, and especially for me. I believe what President George Cannon said, that, “No matter how serious the trial, how deep the distress, how great the affliction, God will never desert us. He never has, and He never will. He cannot do it. It is not His character to do so. He will always stand by us.”
This was taken 5 months after Aaron was born.
I recall a talk from our stake president. He reminded us of two things to remember so that we will remain steadfast in the great storms of life. First, we must accept that we do not know everything, and second, we must know that the Lord loves us. Because our knowledge isn’t perfect it will lead us to rely more on the Lord and have faith in Jesus Christ. It will help us embrace and appreciate the atonement of our Savior, Jesus Christ.
After so many things that my husband and I experienced in raising our own family, I now strongly believe that if we will study and know for ourselves that God loves us, it would make us more positive, and we will be able to face what is ahead of us no matter what it is, with the knowledge that He will never forsake us. Elder Jeffrey R. Holland said, “The first great truth of all eternity is that God loves us with all of His heart, might, mind and strength. That love is the foundation stone of eternity, and it should be the foundation stone of our daily life.” He inspires us to keep loving. Keep trying. Keep trusting. Keep believing. Keep growing. Remember that heaven is cheering you on today, tomorrow and forever, and that the Lord will stand beside you, ever ready to do wonders in your behalf.
